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Rainbows. If you have followed me long enough, you know that it is the rainbow that brings me hope along the way.
Before the loss of Isaiah, I had only seen a handful of rainbows in my life.
The morning, following his passing, there were three people who witnessed a rainbow, all within a half hour.......
I was in my hospital bed, in the I.C.U., slowly waking from the night before. Reality slowly crept through my memory.
My son........ was gone.
GONE.
Just like that.
I called my dad, who was on vacation at the time, and told him what happened to Isaiah. He already knew, but I didn't know that he had already been informed. I remember that my voice was soft and cracking, and I just listened to my dad weep on the other end. He said, "Jenny, there's a rainbow in the sky right now." I said, "There is?" Through his tears, he whispered, "It's a double rainbow." He paused....... "He's safe with Jesus."
Fifteen minutes after talking to my dad, I called Phyllis, my previous mother-in-law. I quietly asked her if she knew where I was. She began crying. She couldn't barely speak. She kept repeating, "I am so sorry Jenny, I am so so sorry." Then, she started to cry a little deeper, and said that there was a rainbow in the sky!
About ten to fifteen minutes after that phone call, my step-dad, Keith, stopped at the hospital to check on me before going to work. He walked up to my bed, gave me a kiss on my forehead, and said, "I saw a rainbow on my way here."
WOW! That's three rainbows in 30 minutes. My dad was in Massachusetts. I live in Michigan. Keith and Phyllis live 30 minutes from each other. They were not seeing the same rainbow.
I know that God gave me the symbol of the rainbow to hold onto for hope. Not hope in heaven. Just a hope that carries a calming peace along with it.
I seriously cannot believe how many rainbows I have seen since August 3, 2008. It's an amazing amount.
I was really struggling a couple of weeks ago and I wrote a post titled, "Praying. Healing. Where I Am....... Serious Post." During the time of that post, on my way to work one morning, there was a rainbow. I remember driving down the road, just talking to God, and I said, " if I just had one little piece of knowledge as to why this happened, it would make it a little easier." Immediately after saying that, I saw the rainbow. It wasn't like a normal rainbow either. It came straight down from the sky, just like a ray of sun beams down. I could not believe my eyes!!!! That was enough for me! Deep down, I know that there is a reason that is beyond anything that my mind could comprehend. I am so thankful that God shared His rainbow with me that morning. I sure did need it.
This evening, I went out to dinner with my friend Jen and her daughter Alexis, and I started thinking of my sweet boy. I usually will go off into some kind of "daydream look" when I'm thinking about Isaiah. As I was staring at the table, I noticed a rainbow right next to my glass of water. Coincidence........... I think not.
Somewhere over the rainbow,
way up high, in heaven...........
he is safe, in the arms of Jesus.
